Worst Day Ever

Well my car broke down.. again. This time it actually died while I was out and about job hunting.
I was in a left turn lane, preparing to turn when the light turned green. Suddenly my engine just died. Just like that. Poof! It was as if the car stalled. I tried to start it again. The car would try to start, but it wouldn’t engage.
So I called Giuliano as I put my emergency blinkers on, put the car in park and put on the break. I opened the hood to check the oil and everything else. At that time a very nice man turned into the street I was on and tried to start my car. He said he thinks it’s something electrical, because the car wants to start but can’t. Then he rolled it in reverse and down a side street so that my car would be out of the way of any traffic.
I checked the car’s fluids. Oil and coolant were both fine. I cried and sighed in disgust.
Now as things go, I was fairly lucky the car broke down where it did. It could have been much worse. The car could have stopped in the middle of an intersection. Or it could have stopped while I was driving downhill, or worse uphill.
Still it cost me $55 for a tow to the nearest car repair shop. They can’t see it until tomorrow though. Even then it’ll cost about $75/hr for labor.
Of course I’m still unemployed. Any remaining money on any credit cards went right to the cost of the tow. Giuliano is down to about $30 after paying bills and mortgage right after getting paid on Tuesday.
So now both of us are asking our families for some emergency money. Least to say this is the worst tax day ever. I can only hope my refund of $400+ will deposit into my checking account soon.

For those who do not know the woes of my car. In the past 15k miles I’ve owned my car I’ve had to replace:
– All 4 tires
– All 4 struts
– Entire exhaust system minus catalytic converter
– AC Condenser
– AC fan
– AC changed to new system
– AC fluid filled and refilled several times. AC still doesn’t work and the AC fluid somehow still leaks out when it’s in a gas form. Stopleak has been used at least twice and it still happens.
– Various other small parts.
So I’ve paid at least $2k work of repairs, not counting regular repairs cars need. I still owe about $1.5k on the car, and I originally paid $3k on it.
Right now I wish I could pay off the car. Then nothing would make me happier than seeing the car launched on a giant catapult, sailing in he sky, plummeting down a cliff, and plunge into a vat of acid.
The car probably went between 100-200 miles since I moved to GA before it broke down today. The damn thing can’t go as much as 1k without something breaking down. Damn piece of crap.

Oh the irony. I need a job for money to pay for car repairs. But if I had a job I wouldn’t be able to get to that job. Or worse I could be stranded several miles from home on a busy highway.
So now I have a revised wish list. For a combo birthday (in early Dec) and Christmas present I want a better car.

Some Deep Thoughts

Mistakes.
To be human is to know that you are going to make mistakes.
Yet this whole concept has seemed to elude some people.
Why is it that some people have a low tolerance for mistakes? You make a mistake and they yell and scream at you until they turn blue and your pride and self-esteem is shattered.
I know mistakes happen. So my thinking is that, “Okay. There was a mistake. Now how do we fix it?”
Yelling and screaming aren’t going to fix anything. It sure as heck isn’t going to solve anything either. If anything it only makes matters worse. The last thing you should do when a mistake is made is to knock that person down and make them feel miserable about it.
Getting angry about a mistake won’t make it go away. And getting angry won’t change the fact a mistake has happened. The only thing you can do is acknowledge the mistake was made and correct it.
I would approach the situation by solving the mistake myself as quickly as possible. Otherwise I’d approach the person who made the mistake. Maybe I’d say something like, “Hey. I found out there’s an error with this project that you did. Can you go back and fix it for me?”
Mistakes happen. Move on and focus your energy on solving them instead of ranting about them.

Anger.
If you ever get angry at someone you should always apologize about it later.
I had a manager that was having a bad day and he got a bit angry. Then later he approached me and said he was sorry if he appeared angry at me. Then he told me this wasn’t the case and he was just having a bad day. And then he apologized again. That whole event made me see my manager in a better light. I had even more respect for him then I did before.
So that’s how I feel is how people should approach the situation of getting angry with someone. We have bad days or bad moments. We know we shouldn’t take it on other people. If we do, we should face facts and apologize for our anger after we’ve had a chance to cool down.

Forgiveness.
We are all sorry when we’ve done something wrong. So the first thing we want to do is say that we are sorry and ask for forgiveness. Sometimes it’s followed up by a request to do something in return to make up for whatever we did wrong.
Now forgiveness is a two-way road. First the person making the mistake has to ask for forgiveness. Then the person who was wronged has to accept the apology offered.
No matter how sorry you are, and how much you work to make it up, you cannot control if and when someone will forgive you. You can be sorry, bow low, weep, and work up their trust again until the day you die, but still that will not control when someone will forgive you. So do not linger on a mistake for the rest of your life. If you have said you are sorry and demonstrated your sorrow then you have done your part.
When someone has made a mistake, asks for forgiveness, and goes to show you how sorry they are, you should forgive them. Actually show and state that you forgive them. Then move on and forget the mistake that was made. If this doesn’t happen, it breaks down the relationship between you and the person who made the mistake. That person will always be fearful of making another mistake. They may avoid you, look downward instead of eye to eye contact, and talk less in fear they’ll provoke you again.

So ask yourself these things.
Have you lately been angry or curt with someone when you shouldn’t have? Have you told them you’re sorry?
Lately has someone asked you for forgiveness for something they did wrong? Did you forgive them?

There is a lot of hatred in the world. There is a lot of anger and sorrow too. Just take a moment to look around. Just look at the news around the world. There is enough hate in this world without having to add to it ourselves.
So instead of adding to the hate, add to the happiness and joy of which there is too little of. If you want to make this world a better place, it starts with the action of each of us. We each decide how we want the world to be by our actions and their reactions.
So next time the moment approaches when you can be angry or forgiving, think of all of the hatred and sorrow in the world. Then make the choice that you know is right.

Career Personality Test Result

Introverted (I) 70% Extroverted (E) 30%
Realistic (S) 53.85% Imaginative (N) 46.15%
Emotional (F) 58.54% Intellectual (T) 41.46%
Organized (J) 58.33% Easygoing (P) 41.67%

Your type is: ISFJ

You are a Guardian, possible professions include – counseling, ministry, library work, nursing , secretarial, curators, bookkeepers, dental hygienists, computer operator, personnel administrator, paralegal, real estate agent, artist, interior decorator, retail owner, musician, elementary school teacher, physical therapist, nurse, social worker, personnel counselor, alcohol/drug counselor.

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And from this website some snippets from what being ISFJ means:

  • “And although they’re hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they’re getting, it’s somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don’t call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.)”
    – Bingo. This is why I have such a hard time writing cover letters about my previous accomplishments.
  • “In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others.”
    – Which is why I love library work in cataloging. It requires a lot of attention to detail.
  • “Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment’s notice.”
    – Very true.

    And from this site:

  • “They are not as outgoing and talkative as the Providers [ESFJs], except with close friends and relatives. With these they can chat tirelessly about the ups and downs in their lives, moving (like all the Guardians) from topic to topic as they talk over their everyday concerns. However, their shyness with strangers is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth these Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves to those in need.”
    – This is definitely me. I’m always shy of strangers, especially those older or in a higher position than myself. Though once as I know someone, I open up and talk with them often. I’ve also read that my type dislikes conflicts, which is again why I’m shy around authority figures.

    And heck this whole page is a very accurate description on what my personality is like.

    My boyfriend Giuliano took the test and found out he’s actually an ISTP personality.

  • First Post! WOOT!

    Okay just kidding about the subject. I just find it funny how many people do “WOOT! First post!”, or “First page!”, or something of the sort. So I thought I’d poke some fun at it with my first blog here.
    So this is my first official blog. I have done a blog by hand on my website, but this is the first blog software I’ve used. So hello to everyone out there who reads this.

    My life right now is a bit messed up at the moment. On my birthday, Dec 2nd, I began the move from Mass to Georgia. As such, I had to leave the job I loved. Now I’m still unemployed and miles away from where I grew up. Even my boyfriend Giuliano is still unemployed after having to leave his job he had here in GA. We couldn’t buy any presents for the holidays. We have to watch our money and make it stretch as far as possible. We’re staying at the house of a friend of Giuliano’s. And we have to wait to move into our first house until late January or Feb 1st at the latest. I feel like I’m stuck between two worlds right now, the world I left, and the world awaiting me when we move into the house.
    It’s odd staying at someone else’s house for an extended amount of time. It’s compounded by the fact I’m the only woman at the house. I’m surrounded by guys (computer geeks) and their chatting about their interests. The fridge has a box of beer and tall cans and bottles of other kinds of beer. At least my boyfriend Giuliano and I make our keep by helping to clean up after other people staying here and buying supplies (food, drink, etc). Don’t worry, we get reimbursed for what we buy for the house. Now I am grateful for Mike (Giuliano’s friend) for offering us a place to stay. Still there are times I feel like I’m in the way. There isn’t much I can do about it though until at least one of us gets a job.
    The only thing I’m happy about is the weather around here. Giuliano and I are walking around in short-sleeves almost ever day. People around must think that we are strange. I see people in long-sleeves and jackets, while we are basking in the 50 degree weather. Compared to the New England winter weather I’m used to, this is great.

    Well I think I’ll end this blog entry as “Who’s Line is it Anyway?” is on TV now and dinner is ready. I’ll try to add more blogs soon. If I don’t post another blog before 2004, I hope you all have a happy and safe new year.